38 week update

January 26, 2010 at 12:11 pm (Uncategorized)

I’m 38 weeks pregnant today. I know, I can’t believe it either.

I’d intended to post at 37 weeks, because that’s such a milestone, but I just didn’t get around to it. So 38 weeks it is.

I am feeling good, all things considered. I mean, this bowling ball strapped to the front of my torso is officially uncomfortable now, as is the constant pressure it imposes underneath it (I now actually spend time imagining the intense relief when the baby finally comes out). This little boy in here is still squirming around, so I rarely have to go too long feeling concerned that he hasn’t been moving enough. I don’t think the skin on my stomach can stretch any further, and it alerts me to this with intense itchiness, on and off, all the time. But I am healthy (knock on wood), in good spirits, and slowly but surely getting things ready for his arrival. It’s getting harder and harder to focus on anything else these days.

I am also gradually recovering from my broken ankle. I did have that second surgery I mentioned last time, during which they took all the hardware out. I think it was a very good move. I fully walk on it now, though I have a limp and it hurts and I can’t be on it for too long and I still have to keep it elevated most of the time. I have been going to physical therapy twice a week, and I’m sure that has been helping. I also feel like this injury is going to be a whole new thing–in a good way–after I’m no longer pregnant. I just feel like it’ll be so much easier to walk around without the extra weight!

Sometimes I can’t believe I’m soon going to be back in the hospital for the third time in the past several months. But this time it’s for a super exciting reason–I really just can’t believe it. I also can’t picture this guy and that is so weird to me. I’ve been having strange dreams about him, for sure, and about what labor will be like and all that. You know, typical stuff. And though I occasionally have the thought, when I’m sitting in front of the tv, exhausted after a long day, icing my ankle and trying to take the pressure off of my back, “Thank goodness I don’t have a kid to take care of at this particular moment,” I’m definitely over this pregnancy thing and ready to meet this new person. I have the vague terror in the back of my mind that he won’t be healthy or that something will go very wrong during delivery, but mostly I just want to see him, hold him, and start finding out what he’s all about.

But all of this is so obvious and unoriginal. Trillions before me have gone through this and had each and every one of these thoughts and feelings. But, well, I haven’t had them before. It’s all new to me. And I’m restless and anxious and I have to have something to talk about. I’ve decided to stay at work until February 5 (next Friday–my due date is the 9th which is following Tuesday) so I can take as full advantage of my maternity leave as possible. It kind of sucks, but people aren’t giving me too much to do so it’s been okay so far. But that also means I have a lot of free time to think about this stuff, which is both good and bad. Basically, my life is about to change more drastically than it ever has before, and I can’t wrap my head around it, try as I might. So I’m babbling on a blog and hoping someone out there can commiserate.

And finally–any words of advice before this happens? What to bring to the hospital, get ready at home, or just do before the baby arrives?



  1. Mel said,

    I remember that feeling. The last 2 weeks of pregnancy were painfully surreal and anxious for me. I was calm but yet SO OVER the whole thing, it wasn’t even like me at all.

    I spent hours trying to think of what I needed to pack for the hospital and we brought just about everything but the kitchen sink and truth? I never even touched most of it. I was glad to have my own nursing PJ’s and slippers after the epidural came out and my shower stuff was VITAL. (I was in the hospital for 4 days with the c-section, so my view is a bit skewed I suppose) I would also say that if you are planning on trying breast feeding to make sure you have some Lansinoh La.nolin on hand and start using it immediately. Put it on after every single nursing session, it does’t have to be washed off before he nurses and it is probably the one thing that got me through breastfeeding 101. (Though even with that stuff, it still hurt the first few days. I just can’t imagine how awful it would have been without it!) Oh and we really wish we had brought a box for the flowers and gifts people brought when they came to meet the baby. We had no way to get some of that stuff home, so we just left it. Otherwise? I would just say have a clean house stock piled with groceries and easy dinners like frozen casseroles, pizzas, canned chili, etc. You won’t want to cook for a few weeks at least and easy, mindless stuff is nice for you or your hubs to be able to heat up with no effort. Hopefully you’ll also have friends to bring dinner… those people are worth their weight in gold.

    I wish you the best of luck in the coming weeks… it is so amazing, savor every second. I cannot believe it has been almost a year for us. It feels like forever ago and just yesterday at the same time. You’ll never believe how much you love that little guy… and it just gets bigger every stinking day!

  2. dana said,

    hey lady! i obviously haven’t been there but am SO excited for you! I can’t wait to read all about it, if you choose to post any info. And I’m thrilled you get to finally hold your lil man in your arms!!!

    Wishing and hoping for a safe, healthy delivery!


  3. Amelia said,

    I stumbled across your blog in my search for inspiration. I wanted to read about someone struggling with fertility, as I am, but who then finds success. And here you are!. I just wanted to say please, please don’t apologize for updating as infrequently as you used to. It’s clear that blogging can be very therapeutic while suffering through the infertility process, and once you are on the other side you probably don’t need to blog as frequently. Being happy and living life makes time fly! I hope you will continue to update maybe once a month or so just to let us know

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